So this is it! It's tomorrow! I don't think I've ever been so stressed for an exam. Or maybe I have, I can't remember. But this is seriously, seriously quite worrying (understatement). Spent the whole of today going through all my tute papers again, and yet I still make mistake after mistake. I am actually quite prepared for this exam considering my notes and revision over the past weeks, but for some reason that doesn't translate into actual CORRECT results, which is of utmost importance when you're doing a subject like financial economics.

In my last post I mentioned that I have had a certain amount of fun doing this course. And I maintain that. I love knowledge, and even if I may not be an expert in it after trying so hard, I'm glad I chose to do this course, because it is so much easier to understand and interpret real financial news (not that I've read much of them but I assume if I do it'll be much easier to understand) and I like being in the know. It's precisely for courses like that - that spur me to understanding and self-improvement - that I've wanted to come to uni for, and I'm glad I chose to do this course. Despite the countless nights over the past week of heartaches and near-to-meltdown moments I've had trying to figure out why the answer is 171.546 and not 171.253 or sth.

So here's to tomorrow, and the hope that all that hard work put in (over the past two weeks, remember, because I've slacked throughout the sem? ha) will translate into good results.

I'm so thankful for all the ppl keeping me in prayer - some back home who have always been rocks in my life, but more surprisingly for this particular period, the wonderful ppl at OCF who have been SO supportive and SO encouraging. I've had messages and prayers sent to me consecutively for the past few days, and I'm just so blessed that despite having only joined a couple of weeks and being quite irregular at that i must say, everyone has just been so thoughtful, and knowing that we're keeping each other in prayer is such an encouragement. Feels just like back home =)

To tomorrow. Let's do this and get it over with babehh!!

Today was such a special day for me I spent the whole morning journaling, talking to God and just being in awe of all that He is doing in me. Intimacy and restoration #thoughtoftheday

Anyway, I got led here because I needed to say this... financial economics has been fun to a certain extent, because I know I'm learning practical, real world stuff, but I'm horrified more than anything that at this point, I don't even know simple terms like "discount rate". Granted, I have not done any first year finance/business courses at all and took the plunge into FE thinking I'm smart enough (which maybe I am but only the results will tell), but I'm also quite irritated at myself for spending most of this semester commuting, cooking, washing the dishes and being on Facebook. (In other words, bad time management) - the result that I have not spent as much time as I should have studying and catching up on lost first-year ground.

And I'm paying for my slackness now, a week before the exams. There is SO much to remember, and absolutely not enough time to remember and understand them all. Only a miracle can save me now. OK I'm being melodramatic but really, if I do well (which I still hope I will, against all odds), it can only be God.

And to think I've not even STARTED studying maths econs, and I've skipped all the lectures... omg I sometimes don't believe myself.

Back to the books! I can dooooo thissss through Christ who strengthens me!