I can't believe Benazir Bhutto is dead! I feel like how I felt when Steve Irwin died. I'm shocked dude!

Christmas has come and gone. It's been a flurry of activities: makans, parties, shopping, sleepover, free Gloria Jean's Mint Chocolate Bomb... (ask me how if you wanna know!) =)

Yet the very one thing that I really looked forward to this Christmas, my class party-cum-COHM project in which I really wanted to see my friends saved, turned out to be quite disappointing for me personally. I don't think I did a good job with the sharing. I kind of rushed through whatever I wanted to say because I knew that most of them weren't interested. I let their disinterest and their jokes deter me. And for some reason, I couldn't really get the point across. I was grappling for words, fumbling for things to say.

But I know God's ways are higher than our ways. The seeds have been sown. He'll see to it that they will grow and bear fruit.

hahahhahahhahahahh!

She can be sooooo adorable sometimes. SOMETIMES!

XD

Across the Universe is sooooo good! The effects are sooooo awesome. And I am so totally in love with the Liverpudlian accent, though I don't understand a word without MALAY subtitles. haha.

I hate uber cold places, like my college's lecture hall, and cinema halls, and some offices, where they crank the air cond up all the way, freeze you almost to the point of death and then give some excuse that it's centralised so they can't control the temperature. As though lah in this modern, technological era they can't do something about the centralised air cond. As it is it's already contributing immensely to global warming while freezing us out of our skins, in addition to increasing their electric bill, so if only they'd do something about it, this world would be a happier, better place don't you think? Air conditioning is supposed to make you feel COMFORTABLE, not make you feel like jumping on the next flight to the Sahara! Oh but wait, the flight itself may make you freeze to death already.

God has been so so amazing to me. He knows my heart's desire and He just fulfills it without me asking.

Bern gave me 4 tickets the other day to watch MPO and I was so so happy until I realised that because of the last minute notice, NO ONE, neither Siyan nor the sixers nor church friends nor my sister could teman me. And I didn't have the time to call anybody else cos I had to rush out to church already, plus it was really last minute notice =( Oh well, at least God offered? hehe...

Then I received a gift yesterday that I've really wanted all along, and man was I happy to receive it! It was all the more sweeter because it came from someone who means so much to me, and I know it probably cost her more than she could afford, sort of makes me feel rather guilty though I'm also feeling really blessed.

Then yesterday Hyon Le asked if I wanted to watch Across the Universe, which of course I've wanted to watch ever since Grace raved about it but I never had the time before camp. So we went (all on him summore. haha. Thanks man!) and it was gooooood, although the crazygilababi cold negative5 degrees celcius in the cinema completely ruined my comfort.

So yeah, God springs little surprises on you all the time. Never stop expecting! =)

oh NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

I think I'm infecting everyone on my msn list with my stupid PC virus. I'm sorry those who opened the file i apparently sent you, which i did not...

I'm swearing off msn for a while, which is what I've been doing all this while, I just suddenly decided to go online today and lookie what happened.

This feels like michael crichton's -prey-, you know, where I infect everyone? Ugh. Sorry guys.

Btw, don't ever eat at the fun fries shop outside the cinema in Jusco Klang. They have the grossest fish and chips ever. yuck.

I wanna watch acrosssss the universe!!!!!! Siyan Siyan Siyan!!!!

First of all,

CONGRATS BUSSIES!!!!!! *jumps around screaming* =) =) =) =) =)

I can't believe camp is over. Months and months of planning, and it all ends in the blink of an eye. So potong! I think it was one of the most tiring camps to date for me personally, with the running around getting things done and not being able to sit in during morning sermons, and up until the last night I felt rather disappointed because I felt that this camp I was only to give and not receive (how selfish of me!), but then God showed up on the last night. He touched me, in His own special way. Not as how I expected it to be, not with a big bang or a sudden enlightenment or amidst a great wave of tears, but just silently, gently, as Kim, Sherrene and I were praying for each other. Man, it feels SO GOOD when God speaks in His own gentle way, when He assures, when He gives leading and guidance, when He reminds you that you are called to serve such an awesome God. It really is overwhelming when I think of how great He is. In those precious moments by the window after everything ended for the night, as Kim prayed for me and as the cool wind blew in through the open window, I just felt peace and... assurance. Yeah, that's the word. Assurance. Ever since Sam gave me that word a few weeks ago, I have stored it up in a special corner of my heart and it never fails to bring peace when I think about it. That word is so special to me...

I think my only regret is that I didn't have the time to really make a lot a lot of new friends, which is something I wanted to do before camp. I definitely made new friends, (awesome ones by the way!), and I got to know previous-acquaintances-now-friends better, some I never knew could be so funny and nice to talk to, but really lor, I didn't have the time to go around and talk to people. Nevertheless, camp rocked!! =)

I'm not really gonna show pictures cos most of them are of me and you'd probably bore yourself to death looking at my same smiley face over and over again, so no pictures.

Oh, except of him


Cos he was arguably the funniest GA ever. He gave me a commemorative keychain from First Baptist Church or something, wrapped nicely in blue paper you'd expect to find some sort of treasure inside, and when I smacked him after camp, his pathetic excuse was:"Eh it's a good keychain wat! It says 'The Lord is my Shepherd' at the back!!" -.-"' Ahhhh, that's not all. The next day he gave me THIS...

Like I don't have a washing machine at home,

And the next day he gave me... WHISKAS CAT FOOD, which i gave to Sean for his new cat,

And on the final day he gave me earrings in a shoe polish box from Thailand.

So to atone for his sins, I made him buy me Dunkin Doughnuts at the rest stop. Wasn't JCO, but oh well, it'll do. He's forgiven!!! =) =) =) =)


And of them


Because it was really, truly a blessing and a joy to work with them. Everytime I talk to Bernice and Justin, I am reminded of what it really means to love and serve the Lord with all your heart, and to love and serve others as you would love and serve yourself. I had the opportunity to talk to them at length yesterday at BOB (yeah, of all places), and I'm just so thankful that our paths crossed. They're both such amazing, talented people with a humility which is so rarely found in others, and they've input into my life in more ways than they could possibly imagine. Come to think of it, working with Justin during camp was a lesson in itself and a gentle reminder from God himself, about what it really means to be humble and to have a servant's heart.

Poh Leong is a caring fwen who sends random sms-es to cheer you up, and who has not uttered a single word of complaint even though he was working his butt off behind the scenes the whole of camp. You did an AWESOME job fwen! =)

And of her


Because we're sweater sistahs!! =)

And of them

Because she is such a sweeeeeet lady who's so easy to talk to and who also has a humble, loving, serving heart, and he's so nice and fun to talk to, besides looking so adorable in the picture and being the recipient of my generous gift of Whiskas cat food.

And of him

Because he's a good fwen and a real encouragement, and the first to give me a Cwistmas pwezzie! =)

And of him

Because I like my muka poyo, because I like the ukelele, and because he is THE musician,singer,songwriter,beatboxer,and member of Bus Company, winner of Battle of the Bands 2007!!!!! Woohoooooo!!

Camp was great, and i believe it'd be even greater next year! I need to say this: Committee members, you guys did a GREAT job, each and everyone of you. I am SO PROUD to be a part of the team, and I believe God sees your heart and He will bless you richly for all that you have given. Truly, it was a blessing to have worked with all of you! *Big group hug*

By the way, I've been meaning to do this. heheh. TECK JIN yoyoyo, if you're reading this, which I know you are, so don't pretend like you didn't get this message,

"Be a MAN. Do the RIGHT THING."

XD

I don't think we pray enough.

Well I definitely don't.

Do we always need a year-end camp or a major Shakers conference or a superb Hillsong concert or a "life-changing" mission trip to get the fire burning?

And when the fire has started, do we have enough fuel to keep it burning for the rest of our lives and beyond? Or is the fire on again off again on again off again depending on the availability of fuel?

Do we pray? For our nation, for the different ministries in church, for the various people in the world who are suffering, for random people God puts in our minds sometimes? Or do we pray only for ourselves, or only when we've got a problem we can't settle on our own?

I've had various challenges from different people recently, and I know there is so much to be done. I get things done, but I really don't pray enough. I've been relying too much on my own strength, with the occasional collective prayer meetings I make myself believe justifies my lack of prayer personally. I've been busy, I've been tired, I've been stressed, I've been running around getting things done. I whisper a short prayer every night before I doze off to sleep. But that doesn't justify my lack of prayer. God deserves more, SO MUCH MORE.

I need Him to help me give Him more.