I'm feeling a bit deep now, so I thought I'd just pen down some of the thoughts that have been swimming around in my head, besides the Tinkerbell thingy. hehe.

The other day Nescafe Kick Start held some recruiting drive at coll, so me Jane and Jess went over to berbusybody, not like we'd get in, but we signed up for the freebies you know? hehe. We were supposed to write down what our dream job was. All along I have never been absolutely certain what I was gonna do with my life. I knew I was definitely gonna deal with the media and people, maybe television, or print journalism. Or PR. I don't mind any of these, but I never knew what exactly to say when people asked me what I wanted to be, cos I don't KNOW what I want to be. And standing there that day filling up the form, for some reason, a lightbulb went off in my head. Before I knew it, I wrote:

"Travel journalist focusing on human rights issues"

Now where did that come from? That kind of life never even crossed my mind, though I knew I was going to go places I've never been to in the future. And then I was watching blood diamond yesterday and it made me think more about what I want to do with my life. And then I thought of that amazing lawyer from Grace PJ who saves up money and self-funds her trips to help people around the world. What a fulfilling life, knowing she's doing SOMETHING to make this world a better place instead of just donating money or canned food to some charity organisation all the time!

We are seriously so blessed and we don't always treasure it. I sometimes feel so guilty for whining about trivial non-issues in my life while someone else across the globe is having his/her brains blown up by a bomb. Sounds totally gory, but that's just the way this world is. And here I am whining about discarded protein samples from space. And I also feel absolutely stupid talking about these kinds of issues when I'm not exactly doing anything to make this world a slightly better place.

And yet deep inside me I want to help. I want to go out there. To what? Get myself killed? I don't know. Maybe, but then I will be in heaven, and who doesn't want to be in heaven?

Of course, it would be AWESOME if I have a life filled with luxury, a 9to5 job with minimal stress, a huge, nice house with a biiiig library (Jane you can borrow books from me then ;p), one of those nice infinity swimming pools, a nice kitchen where I can learn how to cook *erhhheeem*, a huge walk-in wardrobe with rows and rows of clothes and SHOEEEEESSS, and a nice big sturdy preferably black car which doesn't tremble like the little white kancil does when i go 110kmph on the NKVE, oh and did I mention a nice house with a cute little balcony and huge glass picture windows framed by expensive curtains overlooking a scenic garden which I don't have to tend to cos I'll hire a gardener?

And yet, now as I picture this wunnerful life, I know I wouldn't be completely happy. I wouldn't be able to rest knowing there are people who are just struggling to keep themselves alive. I still want to have that house and that amazing life, but at the same time I wanna do something to help this screwed up world. I don't know whether I'll actually be a travel journalist, but I wanna help in some way. And that would start with me sorting my garbage to recycle. See? That's one example of how I feel stupid when I talk about issues like these. I wanna recycle, but I don't really do much about it. I only recycle old newspapers, but not plastic and cans. I really feel like a hypocrite sometimes. ugh.

We'll see where God leads me. I can't wait.

We were supposed to have this Halloween costume thingy today to get 1 mark for participation, but I kind of felt one kind observing Halloween, especially after Ps Henry's sermon on Sunday, so I thought aiyoh whatever lah I'll just wear normal clothes and come up with some story, and I actually managed to put together a pink top and blue skirt combination and pretended to be... TINKERBELL, hahaha, but the lecturer didn't buy it, so I didn't get the one mark after all. Whatever la kayyyy. In the end I wasn't the only unsporting one, because only a few really semangated ppl came dressed up. Most of us just wore normal clothes and tried to fib, like Jane, who supposedly wanted to be a ghost and just wore a very normal nice white top and a very flowy skirt. OOOOOOoooooooo, what a pretty ghost! ;p and Carina, who very conveniently wore her cheerleading uniform, and Edeline, who stole my Tinkerbell idea and became the BAD Tinkerbell while I was the good one. It was quite fun watching some of the others dress up though. Apparently the lecturer is very "disappointed" at our intake because she thought we were "sporting" enough but we totally disapponted her. awww, how sweet of her to think so highly of us! She should have known better though XD

Roshan, Simon and Li Wern, the killers. Ohhh poor pooooorrr Tinkerbell!! Who's gonna rescue the sweet little fairy now??


Us girls...



Yep, that sums up my day. I wanna go for Tchaikovsky!!! Shan MIIIIIIIINNNNN!!!!!

I was starting to think that I am one of a kind, a truly rebel Malaysian with absolutely no sense of patriotism or gratefulness towards her country, since it seemed to me that every other Malaysian was practically bursting with uncontrolled pride and joy at our whole angkasawan thingy...

until I read THIS

Then I realised I'm not THAT unpatriotic and ungrateful after all lah.

I LOOOOVE Azmi Sharom. His articles never fail to get me snickering at some of the flapdoodle (with the help of a thesaurus of course! ;p) Malaysia is capable of and his satirical views on everything is truly a breath of fresh air. Plus, he oooooozes sarcasm. I likey!

I don't have anything against the angkasawan project. I mean, if we have the means to blast a fellow Malaysian off into space just for the heck of it, then why not? I'm happy for the good doctor, especially since he's so damn hot and I personally would have loved to join the program if I could harharhar, and I know he really enjoyed himself looking at the earth and it was the experience of his lifetime and everything so good for him, but I also happen to think that all these grandiose claims in the media about us setting the all-important milestone and conducting life-saving experiments and proving to the world that we're capable of anything if we just set our hearts to it and that we are a truly progressive nation competent enough to be certified space explorers and all that stuff, are just a bit overblown don't you think?

Oh and did I mention that the vials or test tubes or whatever it is he brought back from space containing the life-saving results of the experiment may have to be discarded because the protein crystals inside couldn't take the impact of the landing? -.-"'

Yeah. Some amazing feat we achieved huh? Malaysia Boleh!

Digressing, I don't know how true this is, but I thought I'd just share it with you since it's so funny I can die laughing, my Malaysian studies lecturer told us that a certain prominent politician with a perpetual toupee, when asked for his views on the Nurin case, said:

"KEMALUAN SAYA SANGAT BESAR"

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHahhahahahhhHAHAHHAH!

HahahahHAHAHHHAHAhHAH!

Sorrylar, I'm trying really hard to love this country because I want to, not because I need to. I'm almost getting there. Bear with me all you ardent fans of Malaysia =)

I was gonna post all these up, just for the fun of it lah. But then I forgot and now that I remember I better do it.


Are you laughing? When I saw this I just cracked. Like, laughed till I had tears and stomachache and all. I think my sis and I were making super a lot of noise laughing at this picture in front of our guests. Maybe it's not THAT funny to you, but the thing is my dad wasn't posing for the camera. I literally caught this random picture when he was sniffing the air. And that just makes it DAMN funny you know onot!



I love my dad! He's seriously one of the most chill dads around la =)

We had the lecturer assessment test today. I'd like to know the real reason they bother to come up with something like that at all if no action is taken in line with our complaints. Let's see what happens shall we.

God blesses me with wunnerful chocolate just when I need it most. I can still taste it in my mouth now. mmmm. heh heh heh (Yes la, thank you la Jess! *wink*) Oh and thanks too Com. Tien Chin!! Your chocsies are almost gone ;p

Photoshopping is not that bad when you have someone to teach you how to resize the image. (Yes la, you again la Jess! *wink*) Gosh, just announcing to the world that I didn't know how to resize the image makes me embarassed.

One really adorable 6 year old student told me she likes me yesterday. "lao shi wo hen xi huan ni!!" awwww... I bukan main kembang after that ok! XD

Hope Home tomorrow. If the van driver shows up la, unlike last week when me and Jane waited super long till 6pm only to find out it was cancelled. jeeeez.

I can't wait to finish this book!



The Bourne Ultimatum is the best, most chi kek movie I've seen in a long while. You should really catch it if you haven't.


I'm getting increasingly irritated with KDU's lecturers with each time they simply cancel class and not tell us. I spend so much time and money travelling to and fro and when I get there class is simply cancelled. Why can't they at least have the decency to send a little email saying it's cancelled?!! And I end up having to go to the Curve or One U and spend extra money on food, like I haven't spent enough already this month. But then sometimes, it's good also la when you need to watch a movie, cos I got to watch Bourne. heheh. But set that aside la ok, sometimes I wonder whether it was a right choice coming to this college, screw the scholarship lah. The kids smoke like they're drinking water and I think I might die early from all the 2nd hand smoke, they spout four-letter words in every sentence like their lives depend on it, I travel so far and the stupid lecturer cancels class. It's not even like the 2nd or 3rd time you know. I've lost count of how many times they've done that. And the lecturers aren't even anything to shout about. You'd think after paying so much the students would at least get "GOOD, HONEST EDUCATION". Yeah right lah.

Sigh. Sorry I know I'm sounding a bit like a miss prissy, but seeeeriously! jeez. If anyone is considering going to KDU, you might wanna do a background check first.

I'm rather happy at the way things are going at the moment.

I have my song, which i hope i won't change at the last minute due to excessive stress trying to figure out what photos to take and how to use photoshop (ugh, God help me!) I've been procrastinating for days when it comes to choosing the song, partly because the range was just TOOO wide. I hate projects where the lecturer says "okay! Do whatever you want!" "Choose whatever topic you like!" These are the worst kinds of assignments for me. At least when there is a clear guideline I could stop myself from thinking too much and just sticking to whatever is required. But unfortunately, that's not always the case. So i end up worrying about what to do and then procrastinating. Oh but well, I chose my song! (i think)

Went out for coffee with Kim. I love selamba meetups with her cos it's always so refreshing. She tells me wunnerful stories and helps me through whatever problems I have. I came home feeling more liberated. She's such an awesome person to hang with!

And teaching tuition today was quite fun too, as opposed to last week. The std 3 class today was so noisy and fun. There was this chicken little boy who looked really like the little boy in the colgate advert or sth, and this other cheeeeeeky boy who stuck his finger in his nose and started digging it to mimick me when i put my finger over my mouth to get them to shut up, and later he asked me: "Teacher, why you stand with your butt jutting out to one side? You model ahh teacher?" "Yalah!!" Hahah! And there was this other girl who asked: "Teacher! What's SHITHEAD??" hahahah!! aiyoh so funny lah! And I told them the small blue marble riddle which got them so hyped up and they even went and told the other teacher about the riddle and they were begging me to tell them the answer but i just said "go home and think about it I'll tell you next week" then they were pestering me and all so in the end I just said "yes! So clever!" to this girl who gave me some lame answer. Of course, i myself don't know the answer. I'll have to check with Comm Hon Chong. haha!

Last week's std 6 class was horribly silent. They're so unmotivated and their level of English is appalling. I think I crapped nonsense sometimes just so it didn't get too awkward when it was silent, and of course, to hide the fact that I didn't know how to say some words in Chinese. And to be honest with myself (I didn't want to admit it before), my chinese has really deteriorated to the point that std 6 kids have to help me translate english words into chinese. ughh. And I mixed up buret and pipet, and I came up with some crap that it's called pipet because it's like your pipe at home and you have to turn it in order for water to come out. That's supposed to be buret right? -.-"'But anyways, I'm glad that class is over. Phew.

Tomorrow (Later la actually), Hope Home. Sighhhh...

*click!* for my version of the Rangers Anniversary

Photos accompanying article are below.

The wunnerful wunnerful hall after our decoration. Applause please! =) I actually think we did a real good job, despite the occasional insinuations that the deco looked like WEDDING deco... -.-"' Not THAT bad lah ok!! I'm still waiting for deco team pictures from Zlwin.


Mini me receiving her award.
Councilman William See, who CRIED because of the documentary! Another proof that the docu team did a great job.
The Adventure Rangers doing their thang. I particularly like this picture. I think it's so funny!
Discovery Rangers...

Expedition Rangers in their darch (dance-march. geddit? ;p)
David and Manoj, pride and joy, make that PRIDES AND JOYS of Selangor#1, receiving their GMAs.

Expedition Rangers commanders.***
Then we had our makan on Saturday night. I felt so overdressed. ugh. I should have paid attention to the dress code!!

Anyways, here are the people who make Rangers so ultra fun!

Bawanie Rachel, an awesome friend who's always been there, just a great person to talk to and hang with. Love you loads! =)

Nicholas Aaron. I am NEVER able to shut up when I'm with him. He, together with Ivan Kok, makes me laugh until I got stomach pain. Very funny guy with a spare tire for a stomach. heheh.
Wei Loong and Ivan Tan, other examples of people whom I cannot shut up when I'm around. We kutuk each other all the time and sometimes talking to them is so exasperating. But they still rock lahhh...and they're fun lahhh... ;p
Er yah, biasa stuff from the 2 gays. Pity the guy in blue lah. haha.
Poh Leong, who, on days when he's not emoing, is a very fun guy to hang with and talk to ;p And he rocks hard on the bass!
Sistahs!
Oklah, maybe just a BIT alike la ok??
the JUMS...heehee!

Janielle, photo-taking chick =)
Zoe, spunky 14 year old who ran away from her table cos she was bored. And so we ended up like this.
These are the people not in Rangers, but whom I love and look up to.

Shannon, wunnerful wunnerful girl who just lights up your days! Mwaaaah!

Zlwin, the walking, talking bible. His love for God is really strong and I sometimes wish I was as passionate as he is. A really great encourager and friend =)
Jon, my drummer friend who has helped me out a lot. I like to play drums when he's playing bass. heheh.Does this guy look familiar to you? Think Digi ads. nyehehe...

And of course, there's Kim, my mentor, friend, encourager, confidante. Someone I dearly love and look up to. A great woman who bursts with joy and the love of God. I love her loads.

Long overdue post. =)

Camp committee retreat in Cameron was truly refreshing and fun! I had loads of fun plus I ate like a cow. In times like these, I am so so thankful for my high metabolic rate. I just found out from Jane that if you pangsai very fast after you finish eating means you got high metabolic rate... haaaahhh... now confirm i got high metabolic rate lah. heheheh!

We had wunnerful wunnerful scones and Earl Grey tea, we had very very good steamboat (with jellyfish! Yum!), and we had very very good strawberry-ee stuff.

Caleb bought this toy gun which looked pretty real, so I had this wacko idea... I dared Penny and Caleb to go up to some random ang moh lang and point the gun to their heads saying:"money or life!!!!!!!!!!!". Person who doesn't do it before we get back to Klang will have to belanja the other 2. So we all gungho giler and did it like perfect pros. hahah. Nahh actually only Caleb did it like a pro. His target really got a shock! Me...I went up to my target, did it, and then laugh laugh and say sorry sorry sorry. Then the woman just looked at me like i was crazy (which I think I was la. hehe) Penny summor funny. She wanted to take picture of the, er, experience, so she did it, and made the ang moh pose like he's scared with his hands up. heheh. You guys should try doing this someday. hahahah. So funny la. I laughed until i cried!

Caleb and I...

The committee members who went. They're an awesome bunch of people and I'm so glad to be working alongside them.
Benny Wong and Penny Yong. heheh... and Sherrene, Justin, Wuan Chin, Jeffrey.
Er...yeah... I don't normally look like that btw! >.<
Sherrene!!! XD

Hehehhehehehehheheeheheheehheheh

Steamboat steamboat steamboat!! With Jellyfish!! Commander Theresa rocks for introducing that place to us. Look at Penny and Benny. Haiyooo the two of them arh... XD

Can you see it? They're saying DIE. DIE DIE DIE!!!
See see see?? ;p
You wanna know why it's DIE, come for this year's GY camp! Happening from the 8-11 December. Sign up quick!!

I had a very exhausting day. Rangers anniversary is finally over!! Everyone did an awesome job, though there were some major glitches. But what's most important is the effort put in by EVERYONE, from the commanders to the Rangers. We were all tired, but pushed on. Amazing bunch of people. Pics will be up soon.

Missed Jess' barbeque. I am so so sorry Jess! I had to spend half an hour buying your wrapping paper because the stupid roads were so jammed up. I hate evenings in bulan puasa, i really do. Especially when you have to go to the Andalas McD area. Roads so jam can die. Half an hour. To make a turn from the traffic light into the shop and to get out of that area. *roll eyes* And there was this stupid big bus that wanted to make a U-turn at the traffic light summor which made traffic stop completely. Hello. Not your grandfather punya road you know!! Ish. So I ended up coming home really late after anniversary and Edeline couldn't wait for me cos her dad had to go somewhere so I had no transport to Bangsar and missed the party. Crap.

I was so sad I cried. I was really really looking forward to this. And then i found out Jane and Caryna couldn't make it too, and Jess called and sounded soooo down in the dumps. I can only imagine...to have all your friends ffk...I was so sorry. I felt like... I felt like crap lah. I was really pissed at myself honestly. Why couldn't I have bought the wrapping paper beforehand???! sigh. Sorry Jess. All because of the wrapping paper. Should have just given it to you without a wrapper right!! >.<

I don't like staying where I stay. It's so far away from everywhere! Even from my secondary school days, had to travel soooo far to hang out with mates. And now that I study at an all-talk-but-no-substance college in Damansara, lagilah my friends all live super far away. sigh. Klang oh klang.

Anyways Jess, hope you had a good party. Happy belated birthday. See you in a week? =)